Sunday, December 21, 2008
Humbug. That's kind of how I've been feeling this holiday season. It seems as if the older I get, the more pressure there is this time of year. Remember when you were a kid and you just couldn't wait until Christmas? Oh, sweet anticipation. Everything was so exciting - the carols, presents, decorations. Now, I think carols are irritating, presents are too much pressure, and decorations are just too much work.
Tim and I have to move out of our house at the end of January - no big drama there, our lease just isn't being renewed. Decorating would be silly, because that's just unpacking boxes that are already packed. We also found out not too long ago that he was going to have to take a decrease in his salary. This is why we couldn't make it out to Maine to see his family, or to Minnesota to see mine. We've chosen not to do gifts for each other this year, in order to save money for movers, security deposit, and other moving incidentals. In a lot of ways, we are the type of people who would rather just have a nice dinner out instead of gifts. We had hoped, however, to be able to send gifts to his nephews, at the very least, but that won't happen, either.
People tend to put a lot of pressure on themselves this time of year - baking cookies, sending out Christmas cards, decorating both the inside and outside of the house, buying presents for everyone, throwing parties, traveling to see out of town family members. I suppose if I had kids, I might view things differently - I would never want to ruin the magic of Christmas for a child. However, since that will never happen, I feel as though all my years of doing all the things I just mentioned have earned me a free pass to be a Scrooge this year. 2008 was a tough year for us - root canal, pneumonia, salary cuts for me first, and then him, being laid off from my mortgage company, unemployed for two months, my grandfather getting cancer, and a number of other things that I won't get into now. At this point, I'm just going to be glad to see 2009 come and hope that it will be better.
I think my sister will be here for Christmas this year, although she left Florida late, so who knows at this point. If she's here, we'll probably just hang out here at the house, make a nice dinner, and watch some Christmas movies. If she's not here, well, we'll probably do the exact same thing. I'm okay with that.
So that's Christmas 2008 in a nutshell for me. Bah humbug pretty much sums it up. The one thing to enjoy about Christmas this year is that my office closes down at noon on Christmas Eve and doesn't open until January 2. I will still be there off and on to take care of some things, but it's nice to know I have an option.
Thanks for letting me vent. :)